Breakdown

Breakdown - Jack Johnson

I had my first big breakdown. What do I mean by big? And what do I mean by break? Working out is hard work. Training is hard work. This is hard work, and I am tired, and I am not seeing the results I want, and blah blah blah. For so long working out was fun and I loved it. Now I feel like it is just work. My sister put it into perspective for me when she said, "Working out sucks, that why people don't do it." Good point Sister, good point.
I am frustrated. I thought I would be further along than I am. I am frustrated and tired. I need some motivation. I did, however, swim last night. After hours of mind games with myself. "I can't go, I'm too tired" "I have too much work to do to swim" "My arms hurt" And so on and so on and so on. But, I swam and I swam hard for 50 minutes. I need to get excited about this again. I want to get excited about this again. I NEED to get excited about this again.
I am not going to the gym today, and I should , but I can't. I got a call from preschool and they think he has pink eye. Yuck. We have a 1:30 Dr. appt. At least this is now and not while on vacation.
I am reffing 2 basketball games tonight, it is a higher level so I should get a little exercise in. Reffing this age group I tend to sweat and get into int he flow of the game. So, I have that going for me. Now? Now I am in my sweat pants in bed with a boy with possible pink eye. Grrr.