"I'm not that girl" ohh wait..... Maybe I am. (wicked)

I was that person. No wait; I was that girl. I roll my eyes because it is true, embarrassingly true. I went out to dinner hott date! and this is what I ordered.... (Let me first remind you that I am still on my body purification program.) A salad. No egg, no croutons, no cheese, and no dressing. But a lemon on the side please. Then for the main course I ordered a double order of the steamed veggies. Please and Thank You.

Yes, I can eat chicken now, but I have to admit, chicken tastes horrible to me. I have no desire to eat it. I also have no desire to eat red meat, even though I can't yet. I can't even prepare meat right now, it makes me sick. Fish on the other hand, YUM! I bought some pesto tilapia last week at Whole Foods and can only pray they have it again this week! It was amazing. The only thing my body keeps telling me it needs is a small piece of dark dark chocolate. The kind of chocolate that is expensive and dark and bitter, the kind you can only have one nibble, maybe two before it overwhelms you. That is what I need. I write need, not want. I feel like I need this chocolate. My body has completely detoxed from sugar cravings, I have no desire to eat lifesavers or tic tacs or skittles or any of the old favorites. But chocolate.....dear sweet chocolate. It's almost Valentine's Day, right? One piece of amazing chocolate is all I want....

I did not make it to the gym today, I did not have the time. I thought about going to The Christian Family Centre tonight, but decided I was too lazy. I have a book I really want to highlight though tonight, and as much as I would love to be that girl on the EFX reading her book, I can't be. I don't work like that, I think I am too competitive. My friend Jonathon burned 1,036 calories the other night at the gym, seriously. I am not sure how he did it, other than "just working out hard". What is your record for an evening (or morning) at the gym? Do you pay attention to that stuff? I have an app on my phone that tracks workouts and calories for me, so I try to use as much as possible. I like seeing what progress I have (or have not) made. Do you chart your progress? Does it help?

Tomorrow, Fitness Connection. Join me. I'm thinking 1 or 2. You bring the water, I'll bring the conversation. Chances are I'm the funny one in our relationship.

Inside all of us is HOPE.